Eavesdropping is one of my not so guilty pleasures. I know maybe I shouldn’t, but I can’t help myself. I was born with antennas.
Sooooo I’m at this restaurant and this is some of what I heard in the booth behind me…..
“I’m so mad at myself. I was doing so good, now I messed everything up. I got lonely and overwhelmed and reached out to Frank.”
“Uh oh….did you invite him to live with you again?”
“No! We just talked on the phone. But I feel so stupid that I gave into my impulse and opened that door again.”
“Well if you really don’t want to go there then close the freakin’ door.”
For some of us this is not an unusual conversation. We’ve all had them regarding one regret or another. But it started me thinking once again. Why do we all beat ourselves up about trying to live this life perfectly?
It seems we have an even bigger tendency to do it as we commit to a spiritual path, then we tell ourselves “I should know better, ESPECIALLY now.”
The reality is, change is hard. The tendency when emotions hit is to go back to what we know. Sometimes that is how we learn that something really doesn’t work for us anymore.
WE DON’T HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING PERFECTLY!! (and there is no Santa Clause either sorry).
Thank you God for the progress I have made. Help me not to beat myself up for my “mistakes” but to remember I’m a work in progress, ALWAYS.